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And we sat in that brightly lit room
And talked until I had to leave
I spent the first few months with my back to you
But now I could see your face
And it was beautiful
And you sat across from me
With your arms wrapped around your legs
And a gentle smile caressing your face
And it was bright
And I could see all of you
And your hair tumbled down your head
Past your neck
Resting behind your shoulders
And that small blood vessel from childhood
Left a speckle under your right eye
Your soft youthful skin reflected light from the outside
I watched it carve itself down your neck and across your shirt
Your sometimes blue, sometimes green eyes
Danced around in little movements
Looking at the table
Your head turned
You looked at me
Our eyes connected
For a second
And I felt that this time would be different
Different from before
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This Reckless Life
02:50
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Wasting away as I see the distant light fade
And I've got nothing left now but to ask you,
"Why did you go outside? You see my room is empty and you're still here!"
My consciousness left my body tonight
To wait in a heavenly lobby so I
Am almost certain now that I am
Wearing all your clothes!
I'll try to avoid the unsuitable attraction
Oh, I know this is another fleeting feeling of ecstasy—
I mean I'm not that strong and I'm in too deep!
Been running around this city too long
Forgot about God on my daily walks
I'm banging my head against these four walls—
Metaphorically!
I don't know (x14)
I want to believe these diversions will fulfill me
The thoughts now race inside my head
We stay up late and we close by morning
I am relearning to connect to you
My foolishness here is reaching new heights
A roundabout way of saying I might
Give up for you what I know is right
What a heresy!
I don't know (x24)
Keep checking my phone as if that would solve the problem!
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Forfeit
05:40
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No, we don't sleep at night
No, we just anchor here until we die
That tired glance you steal
A feeling so unmatched it can't be real
You fall across the edge
Trying to find a place to rest your head
And then we're all alone
That's when you realize I'm always shy
My head and my heart are far away
You speak but I can't hear what you say
A quiet book to read
A recollection depth I cannot reach
Your humble beauties shine
You orbit eyes that happen to be mine
My head and my heart are far away
You speak but I can't hear what you say
You head for my heart, I'm far away
You speak of ease but I will stay
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I Can Let You Go
02:06
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Curtain Call
03:37
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Rack and pinion, your rotation brings me forth
A whispered purpose nearly birthed
Stain the lips of Mother Earth
It's your opinion that will make my troubles worse
Teaching me to write a verse
Stain the lips of Mother Earth
In the silence...in the silence I befriend
Aesthetic worldly coverings
Pulled away, brought back again (x4)
Pulled away
I recall a time but it was novel to me then
A cloudy first impression
A mountain top that we would blend
A vinyl record we watch spin
I want to justify the things I've been taught to believe
Tame the turbulence in me
Forgetfulness turned into glee
Pulled away, brought back again
It's not your courage to tell me what I am not
My cowardice an aching spot
Dangled keys and tangled knots (x4)
Dangled keys
I recall a time but it was novel to me then
A cloudy first impression
A mountain top that we would blend
A vinyl record we watch spin
I want to justify the things I no longer believe
Let the turbulence in me
Shape my sorrow into glee
Pulled away, brought back again (x5)
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Is Bliss
02:28
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It's all the same, my joy my pain
I find I've changed, social decay
Late nights haunt me, can't get to sleep
Remain unfazed, I've been erased again
A flash of faith has been replaced
A lens to see reflected dreams
These walls won't hold, thoughts I've been told
Will you help me back to my feet
Again (x16)
And I'll go where you go, I want to know (what is true)
I went too far, tell me who you are (supposed to be)
Mic stands, stage lights, mosh pits, fist fights (all night long)
I heard one man can forgive my sins
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I Can't Let You Go
03:01
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Revolving Around You
04:23
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I am real
Languages I cannot speak
Speak a word to you
When I am rotting in my room
I find it hard to stay awake and
Dedicate my apathetic mind
Rest my soul
I am reaching out I know
I know it's getting harder
To keep breathing underwater
For the first time my own daughter
Knows me better than I know myself
I wake up too tired to ever go back to your house
Struggling to be there 'cause I don't know anybody
Rebel heart
My own willpower won't do
Do you know the way?
I try to find it everyday
But lousy thoughts pull me away
I want to trees to know my name!
God of Job
Will you meet me where I am?
Ample time was given
For you to have earned a living
You are bleeding out the back of your head
I swear I might as well be dead!
I wake up too tired to ever go back to your house
Struggling to be there 'cause I don't know anybody
I told you I was sorry...
In this lifetime I will need you
And then I'll walk away and wonder why the hell you didn't come through
You didn't come through...
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There Is a Light
02:59
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It is unclear
Whether I'm stuck in here
I want to understand my fear
I'll stare at you year after year
It was not so
I was not letting go
I didn't think that you would know
You are my friend, you are my foe
Life is a fit
The sky was barely lit by lamp posts
Do not speak of it
I'll bury myself in a pit
I'm only one
The deed was almost done
But now I've become like the Son
Two makes two, now none makes none
It was not so
I was not letting go
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I thought you whispered to me
But you looked right through me
Windows closing, breeze unbroken
Infatuation goes unspoken
Open the sails up
Straight for empty land
The tender hope inside of me
Resurfaces as gravestones in the sand
Lighten the load please
Laughing hysterically
I forget everything that came
Before we ever did that thing—oh yeah...
We've come so far
Innocent star
You're not forgiven
For thinking I wouldn't notice
What you did when you decided
You were done and now she's hiding it
Turn on your phone now
Please don't listen to me
I once was small but now am broken
I'm angry and I'm disappointed, please
This isn't a live show
Performing with a laugh track
Do that shit again, it's funny
Do that shit again
And again (x7)
Sweaty mind, the eyes roll sharply (we've come so far)
Buses whizzing through my front yard
These window seats are mighty close to
The engines that compel us forward
Couldn't see the look on your face (innocent star)
When you realized you were the one
Who couldn't hold himself together
I wish I could forget her (we've come so far)
I wish I could forget her...
//
I'm sad
And I miss you
I know
It was not you
And I don't know
What I've got to do
I'm lonely
Without you
I miss you
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And we sat in that brightly lit room
And talked until I had to leave
I spent the first few months with my back to you
But now I could see your face
And it was beautiful
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Exist Here Forever
03:36
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I want to wait for the sun to go down to
Go outside, I want a way to hide
The melancholy just suits me better
Than if I ever tried to think that it's alright
I'm not a poet but I probably think I am
I don't get my style—I think that that's alright
Fumbling on words that won't materialize
I think I've lived my lies—I think that that's alright
If I sang you a love song
Would that make our distance small?
Should I wait or did you move on?
Should I ask? Would that be wrong?
And if you hear this song
Please know that I'm not done
So keep your feelings strong
And we can start again this fall
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